Monday, September 26, 2011
What Would You Do?
I have so many things that I have wanted to post over the last couple of weeks, but if I even had five minutes to myself it seems like there have always been twenty other things more important to be done.
Two weeks ago Laila woke up. She went from sleepy peaceful newborn to gassy crying baby. This isn't the first time I've had this happen, so I knew right away that she probably had a hard time digesting milk protein. My other two girls were the exact same and both of them ended up on soy formula pretty quickly. I really want to keep nursing her though, which is surprising because I don't actually love nursing, so I've given up any food that contains milk, cheese, butter, or chocolate. As it turns out, that eliminates about 90% of what I eat every day. It has been pretty hard to adjust my apparently awful eating habits, but this new healthier diet has helped me to loose weight faster so that is one plus.
So the problem is, while cutting out dairy has certainly helped, it hasn't completely solved all the gas/crying/not sleeping. Laila is serious about eating and when she does eat she sucks hard and swallows a ton of air with it. I've tried nursing her in different positions, I only feed her on one side at a time, I burp her constantly, given her gas drops, and most recently tried Gripe Water. All of it combined helps a little, but she still has so much air in her stomach that I could burp her ten times and she would still wake up crying because there was one more bubble.
Are you sensing the real problem yet? She won't stay asleep! She lasts for all of 15 seconds after I lay her day, screams in her car seat and I've given up hope for the swing, which means that I spend all day nursing, then burping, then bouncing her in my arms while she tries to squirm herself awake.
If I had no other children and a cleaning lady, then maybe I could just sit and hold my baby all day long and not feel like life has been sucked out of me, but I have a three year old who still demands a huge portion of my attention each day and my house looks like the kids have taken over. I'm not only exhausted physically from lack of sleep, but mentally as well. And I've started to really cherish the moments when she is not in my arms instead of the other way around.
I'm sure you can guess from the picture what I ended up doing. In desperation I laid her on her stomach to sleep. She still squirms and grunts constantly, but she doesn't wake herself up anymore.
Then, I left the pediatritions office yesterday with a paper saying "Babies should ALWAYS sleep on their backs. Yes, we know they sleep better on their stomachs, but there is absolutely no exception."
I've been worrying all day and checking on her every five minutes to make sure she is still breathing, and the whole time one side of my head is saying "This is bad. Very bad!" And the other side is saying "This is the only way."
What would you do?